May 21, 1951

Monday – Clear

Truly fine weather.

My head aches. Fatigued.

Could this exhaustion be caused by last night’s nightmare? Felt empty all day. Defeated in battle.

Visited M.’s in the afternoon. Though weak, they are a good family. One the way home, visited Y.’s. Engaged him in dialogue, taking a dauntless attitude. He seems to have felt something.

Characters determines destiny. The stout-hearted may be strong but may still suffer greatly.

Questions and Answers on Embracing the Lotus Sutra reads:

Now, if you wish to attain Buddhahood, you have only to lower the banner of arrogance, cast aside the staff of your anger, and devote yourself exclusively to the one vehicle of the Lotus Sutra. Worldly fame and profit are mere baubles of your present existence, and arrogance and prejudice are ties that will fetter you in the next one. Ah, you should be ashamed of them! And you should fear them, too!

- (WND, pg 58-59)

May 20, 1951

Sunday – Cloudy

M. and S. came by. As soon as they left, Y. came over. Together, we went to Omori for propagation activities. Really troubled over my own inability to introduce others.

Returned to my room early in the evening. Spent the day feeling vaguely lonely. What a miserable day it was.

Rested and read a magazine. To bed, 11:00.

May 14, 1951

Monday – Cloudy

A Gohonzon-enshrining ceremony for Miss Y. of Kamata Chapter at 7:00. Mr. Toda attended, and I accompanied him.

The S. family is bright and happy. It is easy to see that Mr. Toda cares for them dearly. Even  among those who practice faith, there are people or families who give us good feelings, as well as those who make us uncomfortable. It seems to me that the people or families who leave us with a good impression are those with pure faith, who are sincere and happy.

Read until midnight. Had many thoughts.

I would like, someday, to write a long poem titled “Religious Revolution”.

May 13, 1951

Sunday – Clear

Only Nam-myoho-renge-kyo. Coming to feel that, ultimately, there is no other way but faith. Plans methods, efforts or wisdom alone don’t always yield expected results. Without embracing the Mystic Law, we cannot lead a free and magnanimous life, not can we establish happiness.

Saw a play at the Mitsukoshi Theatre at 11:00 along with all the company’s employees. Went to Mr. Toda’s house where he began to lecture on Nichikan’s commentary on The Entity of the Mystic Law. Exetremely difficult. Must remember to listen carefully, without asking unless questions.

From Letter to the Mother of Oto Gozen:

There was once a woman who traveled a thousand miles to see the man she loved, at various times transforming herself into a rock, a tree, a bird or a snake.

- (GZ, pg 1223)

Must try my best again from tomorrow. The only way is to be strict with myself and advance throughout my life. Read, then to bed at 3:00.

May 3, 1951

Thursday – Clear

The second Soka Gakkai president, Mr. Josei Toda, was inaugurated. The place – Josen-ji in Mukojima.

Fine weather. The ceremony began at 2:00, and the day’s events ended at 9:00, after a celebration.

At last, Mr. Toda has become president. This was the long-awaited, common wish of all his disciples. I will remember this day for the rest of my life. A thousand and some several hundred must have attended.

Advance! Holding high the banner of the Mystic Law, towards attaining kosen-rufu. Two billion people awaits for us, await the Soka Gakkai’s bold advance.

The leaders’ faces were clear and bright as the new organization implementation was announced. Everyone was in high spirits, each determination, lecture and resolution statement filled with dynamic vigor. I sat by myself in the centre of the meeting, quietly listening to my mentor and the other senior leaders, thinking that no one but Mr. Toda is aware that a lone youth’s sights are firmly set on teh Soka Gakkai’s path ten years into the future.

An unforgettable memory – to see my mentor joyfully tossed into the air after the ceremony. Cannot forget the eyes of H., who always ponders so deeply the Soka Gakkai’s future.

Before returning, stood a the temple door to gather donations for the Gohonzon that bestowed on the Soka Gakkai. Home,  a little before 11:00.