May 26, 1951

Saturday

In the evening, Mr Toda gave a Gosho lecture at the headquarters. Tomorrow, I will accompany the youth division chief, T., and three other youths to the Tochigi area for propagation, staying overnight. Delighted, as it will be my first expedition to campaign in an outlying area.

My district has many points that need improvement. U. and T. came by late in the evening. Inwardly, I feel some Gakkai members could use little more common sense. Spontaneity deserves respect. Nonetheless, it should be appropriate. actions that cause trouble for others can in no way be called spontaneity. Rather, we could conclude that those who act in such a way are taking advantage of Buddhism.

Qualities like courtesy and common sense should serve to enhance spontaneity. They should not exist merely for their own sake. When each individual understands the True Law, and it becomes the driving force, the fundamental principle for that age, how deep the nation’s foundation will be! How reasonable and splendid a society will be established! People will then lead lives free from contradictions and deadlocks.

The True Law: Understand it deeply!
The True Law: Spread it widely!
The True Law: Apply it powerfully to your daily life!
The True Law: Praise it highly!
The True Law: Let it flow, purely, to the depths of your life!

Returned home, 11:30. To bed, 2:00

May 25, 1951

Friday – Clear

In the evening – fourteen eager youths gathered for a lecture from Mr Toda. It was on Letter from Sado. Must try my best.

Regret that I cannot make progress as I desire. Some days I feel so miserable I want to cry. I keep worrying about Omori District. Will pray to Gohonzon for it to become a perfect district.

Why are youths’ mind always changing? Inspiration, despair, joy, suffering, the desire for improvement, dejection, high spirits, worry, optimism, caution … In any event, I must be youthful. Must live as befits a young man. To bed 3:00.

May 23, 1951

W7ednesday – Light rain

A great day.

Spoke with M. about various matters for about two hours in the afternoon. He is really trying hard. I appreciate him from the bottom of my heart.

Lectured in the evening t a dozen or so members at I’s house on The Opening of the Eyes and Reply to Hakiri Saburo. Everyone looked delighted. Nothing makes me happier than to see members’ spirits raised even a little.

Return home at 8:50. Tried working on copy for The Daibyakurenge but could make no progress. Felt discouraged. When will the day come that I can satisfactorily express my thoughts in writing? Prayed to the Gohonzon to convince U. and T. to take faith this month so that they may be saved from unhappiness. To bed, 12:00.

May 22, 1951

Tuesday – Cloudy

A warm day. Things are not going smoothly at work. Troubled. There is an expression, “Advance one step and retreat two.” Faith is absolutely the only way to a solution.

This year, we conducted the first Omori District discussion meeting. Only four guests attended. Shocked, as this truly was not what I had expected. Why do so few people seek this faith, this True Law? Felt alone, dejected. All I can do is fight with all my might until the end. The motion of a single wave yields two, then a thousand and ten thousand waves. Through the power of the Mystic Law, the day will definitely arrive when people beg us to be allowed to take faith. Until then, I will try my best. I must do my best. If i try my best, this is enough. The members are all fighting hard. They are truly admirable. Fellow members, I congratulate you! Let the flower of happiness blossom – for this, I feel like praying.